The Ministry expresses its sympathy that you are having such experiences. It may happen that these are symptoms of traumatic experiences inherited from parents, grandparents, or family members.
We believe that it would be extremely important for the peaceful and healthy coexistence of all of us that we unfold and tell all the untold, unprocessed, inherited, internalized stories which we have banished to the unconscious. But even more imprtant that we mourn the feelings and losses associated to these stories.
Unfortunately, the Ministry does not have the means to give explanation for your experiences.
But if you wish, you can try drawing them, it might be easier:
If you wish, you can try to try not to think about anything, just feel what emotions or feelings are circulating in you and let your hand draw what you want.
It doesn't have to be pretty.